oreo ice cream

so i'm back into the swing of school and ap calc is getting the best of me! if there is anything i complain about a lot, it is definitely that class. it has sapped the life out of me and stymied me from doing my best in other classes. i can't catch up in ap calc and it is just uber tough for me. i used to love math when it actually made sense, and it was just playing around with equations. and ap calc has caused me to complain like this, and i dont like complaining. see, it's even making me complain about other things; complaining about complaining.

i'm sorry my second post of the year started out negative! butttt--we all like big buts--on the bright side, i love the book we're reading in ap english--the awakening by kate chopin. i have to admit, for a lot of the books we read, i don't get to "get in the reading zone" for most of the books and i have to skim chapters, etc. i really love reading and english and exploring how these sentences, these simple words evolve into themes, all intertwining and creating powerful stories! but then, ap calc comes in to burst my bubble and i only have 10 minutes to read act III of hamlet.

but anyway! the awakening! i love it so much that i've noticed myself unconsciously making time to "get in my reading zone" for this book. not being able to entrust your life to someone, finding who you really are and not what society makes you, staying home at one place, and wanting to belong to someone -- i feel like those are some key themes in that book and they are definitely key themes in my life. only two books have made me cry--night by elie wiesel and the awakening. it just touched a level inside me that no other book has. and reading the awakening has instigated a few awakenings in myself, too; for one, it made me remember how much i love loving. it has been so long since i've enjoyed reading like this. and two, for some reason, it made me want to explore the arts deeper and let go of any worries, and go for creativity in everything no matter what people might think or say.

i had always been an active artist and appreciator, but since high school started, i sacrificed my art interests for what i thought were more career-related. so i took online art--which really isn't very art-y at all--instead of an actual arts course, so i could take journalism and video communications. anyway, das' why i luv bloggin'! here's an image i played around with; the simple, rich, pastel colors from 1:14 of this animation video really inspired me.

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as for clothes, i've been indulging in the urban outfitter's clothes my mom bought me for christmas from their fabulous black friday sale. :]

outfit details
shirt - urban outfitters
jeans - banana republic

and the dress i like to call the oreo ice cream dress. (story behind it: i was eating an oreo at church during their snack break (i know, it's pretty awesome), and i was thinking "holy st. francis, this is a good cookie." and "this oreo reminds me of a dress i wear.. ohyeah! but not the actual oreo cookie, but crushed oreo or oreo ice cream" and now i'm thinking i really want some oreos.)

outfit details (all christmas gifts!)
cardigan - urban outfitters
dress - uo
leggings - jcrew

some pictures from my christmas break that i didn't get to upload earlier! i made my family christmas cards and i was really proud of my celophane usage. :D i really wanted to do a 'how to post' but i wanted to make them within the 30 minutes that they were shopping at the grocery.

my brother gave me these "princess shimmer decorating glitter gels" for making cookies!

my first time making cookies not from the Pillsbury frozen cookie packages. i know, i am a terrible...human, for not making cookies from scratch before. and even this is technically not making cookies from scratch, but it was exciting enough for me. although they were so burnt and super stale, they tasted kinda good?...


so this was an unexpectedly long and rather legitimate post. i think i broke my new year's resolution on procrastinating less, because i definitely have a lot of homework left and it's past midnight, but i did fulfill the 'blog more' part. :s mmm...


song of the moment -
the way Stevie Wonder sings it exudes so much beauty and emotion--love it even when it's not christmas.

price tag - jessie j ft. b.o.b.


ps. class of fashion post coming soon (there's pictures from like months ago, so their fashion might be "out of season" but oh well. hehe)