All I Can Say

I'm back in the United States and I miss Korea beyond words but it's quite nice to be back home. After visiting my etnic home of yucky cigarette smoke and filthy air, it was so so so refreshing to breathe Washington air again. Man, as I quote my mom "Washington's air is the air of heaven." Really.

And before I move on to my outfit post (I can't wait to show you pics!), I'm going to be sappy and type up my last journal about my pops and how he lives in Korea (it was written while I was still there):

I keep thinking about the next time I'll see you. Another year? That's even doubtful. Another year of nights playing Boggle with just mom as two empty seats - your's and bro's - stare at me. Another year of watching mom making decisions by herself. Weekends of 30 minute telephone calls with you will be the closest I get to you - unless you awkwardly learn how to Skype and do webcam chats. Another year of being without you, and it might even be longer than that.

Then I'll be off to college, I'll be busy, cuz life moves on. So four years of my best years, without you. Even if I want to see you, I'll be busy. And even if you want to see me, you can't because that's where you've made it, and that's where you'll be. Even if I were to get married, you won't be here. Even if something were to happen, you can't make it. I'll always have to go to you instead of you visiting me. Can't be you come here to stay? No. That's the way it is. You won't be here. There's just something missing. Always.

I keep thinking about if you'll be ok. I heard you have high cholesterol and you're body weight and fat percentage isn't so great - I'm not surprised. Will you be alright even if I'm not there to snatch that bag of crackers from you - as I sneak a piece for myself? All I can do is pray and look at the moon - the same moon you see at night - and hope for the best. I already miss you. My hand gets numb as tears start forming. My body feels weak and vulnerable even though you're just a few feet away as I write this, playing BaDook on the laptop.

I'll miss how you unconsciously smile as you watch your favorite Korean dramas about competitive bakery stores and Korean mafia men. I'll miss late night cucumber massages. I'll miss eating out and you telling me to "take your time to eat everything" even though I always take over an hour to eat every crumb anyway. There's so much I'll miss. Although I entrust my worries to God, one thing is for sure - I'll miss you. I already do.

This is a mini ramble that kinda goes with the above:

Home.
Where are you?
New Jersey - my birthplace?
Korea - my ancestral place?
And definitely not Seattle...actually...

Home. I can't decide.
But home isn't a place I choose, right?

Home. I'd like one. A place where I'll stay put.

Home. Where is my heart?
It's at home, I know,
but I don't know where you are.

& noww...
I took these pics in Korea at a park-y place by my dad's apartment. :) I walked back and forth from my camera many a times for these photos.

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I like this one :) It looks like I ran very far to take this photo:

Got excited with editing:

I tried to stand real tall because I thought I was too low for the camera...but I guess not.

I am quite magical:

Outfit details:
top - H&M
shorts - Qua (Korean brand)
shoes - custom made by my uncle :)
bag - from a street store in Myungdong, Korea

In other news, school starts next week! Super excited - and overwhelmed, but it's ok. :)

song of the moment -
Baby, I'm Your's - Arctic Monkeys (I could listen to this song any day, any time)

Nom nom nom

I don't want to think about how many days it'll be til I find myself on the plane back to the U.S., but facing reality, I leave in two days and I miss Korea already. I wish I didn't have so many worries, so many tasks to do, but I have to remind myself that it's all for good stuff. I wrote in my journal some sappy words of how I'll miss Korea, but I'll save that for the next post. :]

I haven't been going out places as much because I did surgery and I'm not supposed to walk around a lot, but before the surgery, I met up with my bestest chum Jane. :)

This is when we were trying to catch a cab.

Yes, she is a strange blob.

Look at that hot bod. Sorry I'm embarassing you Jane.

Isn't her necklace so pretty? :]

Off to lunch to eat some Korean porridge (the word porridge sounds so not delicious, but it is so delicious, at least I think so).

I ate Beef and Mushroom rice porridge. :] (Jane had Tuna I think)

And then her shoe broke and we did some intense flip flop surgery. Her sandal wasn't under any anesthesia, so I'm sure it was very painful for it.

She knows how to rock the bling.

The next two pics are my favorite of youz. ;)

(Dress - Forever21)

I miss ya everyday Jane and I'll never forget ya.

On the subway ride home, 5 people in a row wore some shade of pink - from super hot to tickle me pink and I couldn't resist (but I had to blur their face out):

And on the way home, I took lots of outfit pics and ran back and forth setting my camera timer, etc. But I'll save those pics for the next post! (which may be when I'm back in the US, but oh well!)

Here's some good vids that should make your day if these pictures haven't already. :)

When you just want a good laugh (or want to see cute hamsters nibbling on food or want to hear quirky om nom nom music)


When you want a sweet song to dance to or if you just wanna watch pretty ladies dance, this is your song.


And one last media mumble: Alex Turner is so cyoot (lead singer of Arctic Monkeys). Watching someone make music - especially if it's music I like - is such a turn on. *swoon* (Although I have no idea what's up with the crocodile head)

It's the 1000th time and it's even bolder...

The title lyrics are from Teddy Picker by Arctic Monkeys - so catchy and classy. (I think I'm growing fond of Alex Turner...)

I can't believe it's already been two weeks since I've been in South Korea (and I haven't done much college appin' or standardized test studyin', I will be in a pickle when school starts). I haven't been blogging as much as I have been hoping. I've taken so many pictures that they're piling up in the editting list! I needa nice cam so I don't have to edit my pics so much! My cousin suggests and Olympus Pen (it's a hybrid camera so it's got all the fancy functions of a DSLR but it's small and compat like a digital cam, but it's still approx. $800...).

Anyway! I met up with my cousin and she and her hubby slept over for a night. The results: a lotta pics and a new outfit! It really is so beautiful to see family again. It's been about two years since I've last seen my relatives and there's nothing as refreshing as seeing family. :)

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She's like a professional model, no? ;)

More fun stuff:

We played around with photos and one of these photos is of my cousin's husband sleeping and the other is of him pretending. Guess which is which? :D

:)

Orange juice, Arizona Ice Tea, and Ice Coffee


I think this is my fav pic of all us - and I'm wearing my new outfit they picked for me!: (I smell a future outfit post)

A few days ago it was my mom's birthday so we celebrated with some cake! More pics of the b-day celebration are coming!

Song of the moment -

Arctic Monkeys - From the Ritz to the Rubble

PS. Thanks for continuing to read my blog! It's always super exciting to read a new comment and to find a new follower! Let me know if there's something you enjoy in particular, dislike in particular, or if there's anything you'd like to see more of! G'bless! :)

*edit: I'm getting surgery today (Thurs. Aug 19th) and it'd mean so much to me if you could pray that the surgery went well. I'd rather not explain what the surgery is for because it's quite embarassing and you might laugh at me, but I'll just say it hurts a lot and I'm not allowed to walk for a few days. Wish me luck! And take care! :)

A Little Bit of Home

Sorry for the delay in updating! Korea always keeps you busy in random ways. I'm actually taking acne treatment while I'm here since it's so much cheaper and more professional than the places where I live! So I feel very pampered and fresh. :) But here are some snippets of the past few days. :)

In Korea, cats sell cell phones! (not really)

And these paintings were on the wall of a delicious Korean restaurant!

"Let me help you with that ma'am."

"And let me help you with that, too..."

"And I'll leave him to you."

That's my dad swiping a piece of heaven in front of the camera lense.

There he goes again - his chopsticks moved real fast so you can barely see them.
The Bacon is called "Sahm gyup sal" in Korean. :) It was truly delectable - I think that means tasty? And I'm sorry if you're a vegetarian! Please do not be disgusted by me! I can't help myself!

This is fresh off the grill (FOG?-asian inside joke, now you'll just think I'm crazy if you don't get the pun D:) garlic and a spicy-ish bean sauce (called "Dwehn Jang" or "Ssam Jang")? I have no clue how to describe it, but you just needa know that it's gooood. It tastes especially great with Korean BBQ and/or lettuce. :)

This one's just for fun. (This one is not edible...)

Song of the moment -
Baby I'm Yours - Arctic Monkeys (it's so sappy I love it!)
Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat

PS. I turned on auto-play but I really hope it doesn't scare. Please please do let me know if it bugs you! (I think it might be funny because the song starts "do you hear me? i'm talkin' to you." hehehe).